pressure

i think that in japan they sweep the sidewalks more than we do here.

fast food joints are a wonderful representation of the society we've created for ourselves today.
drive-thru.
never mind the clearly empty walk-in section of KFC, let's listen to the stranger serve us through the machine instead.
"hello, how can i help you?"
often repeated multiple times because machines are just another thing we've created to get in the way of true communication.
nobody takes the time to step out of their car, walk in, order, and make small talk anymore.
why?

we are a nation of people who can't look each other in the eyes.

it takes about 4 seconds to cut up an apple.
hm, 4 seconds i don't have.

i am behind in history.
i am behind in english.
i am behind in philosohy.
i am behind in laughter.
i am behind in friends.
i am behind in sex.
i am behind in love.

i am behind in everything except drugs,
and that was an accident.

i keep telling myself if i eat better, clean up my body, you know,
everything else will fall into place.
well,
i think i'm starting to realize that everything's "place" seems to be all around me, on the floor.

i wish i was japanese.
the only sidewalk related passtime i have is stepping on the cracks.