like i ever held a gun

i've never been good at walking on eggshells,
never been good at putting out fires.

i never did listen to the warning bells,
to the caution and care that i guess it inspires.

i'd never been taught to go biting my tongue,
never learned how to think my words through.

i never was much except honest and dumb,
and i'll never go changing for you.

but like everything i've ever known, you'll disappear one day

so i'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away.

the old lyrics you always come back to, you never forget

you're waiting for a call
that you know won't come.
just when you think you've seen it all,
something bends you to break.

and if you fall for it the first time,
then you're not so dumb -
but you've been in this place before,
and you can't call that a mistake.

you saw it coming.
you knew it would.
could have kept running,
like you told yourself you should.

you've been in this situation
and you know the fucking ending,
it's a definite equation,
so why the fuck are you pretending

that someone that you love
could ever see that in you?
this story fits you like a glove,
and you can cry but it's still true.

FUCKING DO IT

~a gentle encouragement~