an obligatory post about friends

1. you are my stereotypical girl friend, minus any drama. i have never giggled so much in the presence of any one person, and i love you for that. i actually feel like i've known you forever. as cheesy as it is, i love that when i'm with you all we do is dress up, read magazines, and talk about boys. i needed this outlet. thank you so much.

2. i hate that i actually have to exert effort to avoid you. believe it or not, i will always think of you as my purest, most unfiltered friend - despite your hyper-sexuality. you live in the moment, for yourself and your passions. it drives me insane but i also envy you for it, and no matter what happens, it makes you you.

3. i worry about you. you are my go-to friend, and as much as i am glad to see you taking more time for yourself, i am also so sad to see you drifting away. you're so smart and logical and you really keep my head out of the clouds, which i have to thank you for. i hope you're alright. seriously. i am always here for you, just like you have always been for me.

4. you are the only one out of all of my friends who has actually full-out stood up for me. like yelling, bitching them out, completely unafraid-to-announce-who-my-friends-are kind of girl. i love you to death for that. i have never had anyone like that before. i hope i can be as strong as you are someday, honestly. i know it sounds cheesy, but it's the absolute truth.

5. you are SO MUCH FUCKING FUN, all the time! ahahaha i love you to death, you are so happy and outrageous and hilarious 24/7 and i have no idea how you do it. honestly, even when you're like sick and hungover you still have like 10 times as much energy as i do, i'm so jealous! ahaha i have never heard you say anything bad about anyone and i love you for it.

6. i miss you to death. i know things can't go back to the way they were but i honestly feel like they are worse than they have to be and i don't know what to do anymore to make it better. maybe you don't need me anymore, and that's fine, but i think i've come to realize that i need you. and maybe i've lost that privilege, but i still love you. i always will.

7. you're like my little sister. you stick by me no matter what, and as much as i hate to admit it, you're only ever mad at me for my own good. you're probably one of the few people who i feel like i will actually keep in contact with after high school - because i know you'll kill me if i don't! thank you for watching me grow - no. thank you for helping me grow.

8. i never see you anymore, but you're still probably the only person who has seen EVERY side of me... poor you, ahaha. i miss you like crazy - come home soon ! we have gone through so many phases together, made up so many worlds together... you inspire me. you're so strong (and stubborn) and i might as well just call you mother... ahaha. love you.

9. i will always think of you as my best friend simply because you're the first one i ever had. i don't know what to call us anymore, since we barely see each other or talk anymore, but for some reason i feel like i know that you'll always be there. hm. i hope you feel the same way about me, and if not... thank you for the memories. you're my friend of firsts.

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someday i hope to have many more important people to write about than just 9.