yellow diamonds

i'm starting to realize that i'm going to be okay.
sort of a belated revelation, but whatever.
better late than never.

i sent an "i miss you" text again today,
but i was sober so i feel like it's not quite so bad.
or maybe it's worse. fuck if i know.
but he's now officially over me,
that much is certain.

it sucks,
but at the same time, i know it's probably for the best.

lately i've been noticing that i get a lot more attention from boys than i thought i did, which is flattering in the weirdest way, ahaha.
it makes me wonder if maybe people think i'm easy,
but then again, when i do hook up it's usually with randoms,
not with guy friends who have been flirting with me.
so idk.

i secured my summer job too,
which sort of solidified the fact in my mind that the year is almost over.
so as much as i hate to be the girl who friendzones everyone,
uh. yep. that'll be me for the rest of the year.
ha.

we'll see. meh.