magnetism

i slept through the entire day today and had a horrible fucking dream.
long story short, i was raped by a guy who lives in my residence (in the dream),
and when i called out for help, it was rory's name i called.

god fucking damn it.

and i know it's just a dream,
but it really sucks to wake up feeling like absolute shit
because of some fucking weird imagery your mind came up with,
and have your friends fucking laugh at you when you seek solace.
like fuck.

i know i should find it funny because it was just a dream,
but i woke up completely soaked in sweat with my heart pounding
and i legitimately had to sit on my bed and just focus on breathing
for a solid ten minutes before i was sure i wouldn't burst into tears.

what the fuck is the matter with me.





and for the record,
when i called rory's name in the dream,
he didn't come.