so no.

"breathing in:
much harder with guilt pushing down.
sinking in,
that he doesn't want you around.

paint on your face,
you're quite the disgrace
when you tear off the flowers,
the pearls and the lace.

run and hide,
bury it deep inside.

you can hope for the best
with that weight on your chest
and his voice, which you swear that you heard.
if you need to weigh out
all your midnight doubts,
start with the weight of your words."