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i understand that when people try to encourage me to go to the gym it's because it's generally considered just a healthy habit to get into, but i can't help but be bothered by it. i have never in my life been as out of shape as i am currently but i feel like nobody here knows that the way i do, or the way anyone who knew me before i came here does. i have always been athletic and physically capable and the fact that some people seem to be suggesting that i'm not really, really bothers me. especially because i'm thinner than all of my friends here and if anything i need to put on weight rather than lose it and every time i fucking go to the gym all i do is lose weight. plus fuck you, everyone's idea of going to the gym is pretty much just going and running on the treadmill for an hour, which is not healthy. when i go to the gym i do all the weight machines and have to be super careful that i don't work up a sweat because i will legitimately SWEAT AWAY LIKE TEN POUNDS unintentionally. i hate that people keep suggesting to me that i start going to the gym because if my fucking bmi drops any lower i am actually going to have to see a doctor about it again, and i am sick of the judgement and unhealthy body image that goes with that.

in short: everyone needs to mind their own business.
i know my body better than you do and i know what's best for it.
keep your good intentions to yourself.