friendzone confirmed

but i feel good to have gotten
that confession off my chest anyway.

it's just a silly little crush,
not a full-on "let's date" scenario,
so hopefully knowing that he's not interested
helps it go away a bit quicker, ahaha.

and for once in my life,
things aren't awkward either,
which is nice.

i want to stop depending on other people.
as much as lately i have been feeling tired of being "the strong one",
i think i've let that feeling get in the way of letting me see
that i have been leaning on people more than ever before.
i think people are beginning to notice,
so i should too.

as much as i don't want to be the rock,
i don't want to be the burden.

and as per usual,
i am all one or all the other.
and if that's really the case right now,
then i know which one i prefer.

i need to learn how to not be lonely,
when i am alone.