thursday

can i please think about something else now?

last night i pounded out three 800-word critiques for my sociology correspondence course. the first two were exactly 800 words and the third was like 732 or something. it was also pretty bad in quality i think, but it was 1am and i was tired and i had to get up in 6 hours, so it'll have to do.

11 days.

tonight i'll write my sociology midterm and try to at least start on my 5 psychology assignments. we'll see how that goes.
i haven't done any reading at all for that course, so hopefully i can at least mostly bullshit it.
argh.

i feel like this year, once i'm actually back at school, i might have a better handle on my schoolwork. i know how to study now, and it's just a matter of timing. i know how to sit down and get work done and now that i've figured it out, i actually enjoy it for the most part.
it's the stress that i hate, and all i need to do is avoid it.
i know how. i just have to DO it.

hm.

i'm going blonder this weekend and hopefully talking out the last four weeks and figuring out whether i think it was a waste of time now, or whether i'll think that in a few more weeks. i don't even know.

i know i've never felt this way about someone else before, but i also know that i've felt this way about myself before and i'm not sure that it's worth it. then again, this is how i always feel until i see them in person.

damn it, here i go again.

i just spent $300 online at forever21 and urban outfitters. i hate spending money at those places because i know it's all cheap, trendy, mass-produced shit and i could get way better quality at a way better price (not to mention better selection, style and originality) if i got my ass downtown, but it doesn't look like i'll have time to visit toronto this summer.

next summer i definitely want to be able to have time off.
we'll see.

oh and also, because i don't really have much to do at work right now:
august 18th, 2011 - 11 days at home - august 29th, 2011.
august 29th, 2011 - 39 days at mta - october 7th, 2011
october 7th, 2011 - 3 days at home - october 10th, 2011
october 20th, 2011 - 31 days at mta - november 10th, 2011
november 10th, 2011 - 3 days at home - november 13th, 2011
november 13th, 2011 - 41 days at mta - december 17th, 2011
december 17th, 2011 - 15 days at home - january 1st, 1012
january 1st, 2012 - 47 days at mta - february 17th, 2012
february 17th, 2012 - 9 days at home - february 26th, 2012
february 26th, 2012 - 60 days at mta - april 26th, 2012

... yep.