mulan

i'm sick, i'm sick, and i -
i'm losing weight and losing time, i
don't know what i look like anymore,
who this person i'm supposed to be is;
don't know if i ever did, i'm just -
i feel like i've been dropped
out of the sky, out of my mind, it's like -
where have i been, where have i been,
where have i been that i
don't recall how i got to be
this body and these actions and i,
i don't know who i am anymore
because i'm starting to realize
i don't think i ever knew
who i was after all.
i'm sick, i'm sick, and i -
i'm losing, losing,
lost.