every once in a while, a strange thing happens to me
where the roof of my mouth gets heavy and my skull gets thick and tries to follow it down to sleep on the bed of my tongue.
and the skin on my fingers grows sharp around the edges where the digits sometimes fold into one another. i can feel the flesh react to each push on the keyboard; i can feel each corner even when i do not look.
i can't get enough air and i feel like it will never end and i am filled with the worst sense of panic and dread i can imagine and i don't know what brought it on or how to make it go away.
the thing is, i've had panic attacks before and they are not usually like this,
whatever this is.
this is the first time this has happened to me at work and i don't know what to do.
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