grave of the fireflies

i can't imagine what the people in japan are going through right now,
but mostly what i can imagine is having no one to blame for it.

it's not fair.

it's incredible how i can live day-to-day
and feel like the weakest person alive -
while other people somewhere else in the world
are doing the exact same thing (or trying to)
and are so much stronger than i am.

i couldn't do it.

it's a strange mix of emotions when you realize all at once that you're just a helpless individual at the mercy of the universe, and that so many people are ignorant and yet so many people are strong.
when you realize that you're ashamed to be from a certain place in the world,
but so fucking proud to be a part of the world at all.

i am proud of the human race,
in spite of it all.

but even that seems wrong.
i don't know.

grave of the fireflies was an incredible movie.
i cried like a baby. i wanted to crawl into someone's lap like a child when it was done.
but there were no laps around.
(hi wallace.)

my lord.