"when you get better."

what a loaded statement
while i am loaded up on medications
that still don't keep me full, i

try to understand that you don't mean it like that
but i have never been good at understanding,
and isn't that the problem.

"when you get better,"
and this is all i've ever been
and all i ever will be

is sorry for that.

i know it's not enough, never enough,
never, never, never,
is -

"when you get better,"

is never, never, never.