valedictorian

i'm so flattered, so scared
so fucking nervous
so surprised

i can honestly say this is something i did not see coming, at all
especially since i have recently dropped off the face of the earth

but everyone is so wonderful

and sometimes i forget that it's worth it to have faith in the other people in the world
and sometimes, if you do, they'll surprise you in ways that make you feel
like you're a million miles in the sky
surrounded by the stars

maybe it's just a speech
but it represents so much more than that to me right now

i didn't know i still had friends anymore.
(say hello to the first period used in this entry)

i think, more than anything, i'm scared of falling now
because i feel so, so high

and i am just so terrified that this will all be joke or something
and i will lose (much more than just a silly title)

oh lordie,
i am in deep.

cross my fingers, knock on wood,
and most of all - have faith.

the votes will decide in the end.
aye carumba.