the heat in the back of my eyes

it's a warning that i will yet again ignore
you think you get stronger, you think you get smarter,
but you don't.

you just get better at telling yourself
the same old lie.

and what i really want to know is,
am i the only one who is alone?

because if i'm not,
like everyone keeps trying to tell me,
then why are we not all alone together?
i just want to be alone together.

i didn't think i was asking for the world.
i used to believe in my intentions.
i didn't think i was asking for much at all,
but apparently

it is too much for me.

and in the end the love you take is equal to the love you make,
but how do you start?

i have nothing.

and it's a familiar place to be,
so maybe that's alright.

but sometimes,
just sometimes,
i really, really, really, really,

really

really

really

know it's not.



"if only we were..."
"i know. but we are what we are."

what we are.