change

today i realized that i really do love and miss sports.

today i realized that buying new makeup and dressing myself up when i get home does make me feel better.

today i realized that my mom has been on anti-depressants for years... back when she hadn't remarried... back when it was just the two of us.

(this is the part where i beg someone to tell me how to not feel responsible for that)

never fear, though:
i took my first prozac today.